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Testimonies
and Other Writings
The
following is the work of the individual author and does not necessarily
reflect the views or opinions of the Opus Dei Awareness Network,
Inc.
“The
Aristocracy of the Intelligentsia,” by Mariano Curat, former
numerary, United States and Argentina
This testimony was originally
published in Spanish on the Opus Libros website, and has been translated
by friends of ODAN and Opus Libros. The original article is "La
aristocracia de la inteligencia."
All
of us could write hundreds of pages about our own experiences.
I
was a numerary for many years and as we all know very well, they
repeated to us so many things in “The Work” (nick name
for Opus Dei) that we came to believe were true.
“Numeraries
are the aristocracy of the intelligentsia,” and “One
of our dominant passions is to give doctrine,” and we went
through the streets with our heads up high thinking that we were
the only ones who had clear ideas and that the rest were ignorant
and didn’t know what they were talking about.
Now
when I look back, I realize how arrogant I was.
Always
teaching the “true interpretation of the Gospel,” pontificating
as if the only true interpretation of Christian doctrine is that
which I had learned in “The Work.”
What
a hard shock reality was when I left “The Work!”
“Aristocracy
of the intelligentsia!” How they lied to me!
I
had lived for ten years with people as ignorant as I was, so that
I never noticed my lack of culture in such an obvious way.
Even
though I had a university career, I didn’t realize how ignorant
I was.
Theoretically,
the numeraries are “everyday Christians” who live their
lives like everyone else, but when I left “The Work”
my new friends looked at me as if I were crazy.
I
never read essential books because they were prohibited. (See Index
of Forbidden Books.) I never had the opportunity to appreciate
the theater, the opera and concerts because I could not attend public
spectacles. And there were hundreds of movies and documentaries
that I never had access to.
I
could not begin conversations with anyone because I didn’t
have anything to talk about.
As
you can imagine, my first years out of “The Work” were
marvelous. It was like I was being reborn, a Renaissance of my personality.
I
could not stop reading books; I learned to enjoy the theatre, opera
and concerts. The movies opened my mind to new cultures and religions.
The
best was that I learned to respect and treat people in another manner.
This petulant arrogance and that yearning to be the owner of truth
remained forgotten.
Now,
I only know that I don’t know anything. Now when I am talking
with someone I enjoy the conversation and I am happy to learn something
new that I didn’t already know.
November
16, 2003
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